Spontaneous Smiles

​​"Spontaneous Smiles"
By Meshea Crysup,  Founder fibroLIFE© & MesheaCrysup.com: LIVING a fibroLIFE©

We are all aware—and probably guilty of taking—those silly “tests” on facebook. Every once in a while, however, they seem to “nail it”. In fact, one I took yesterday did just that!
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Those who know me, know this to be true about me. It is not an “act” I put on for fibroLIFE© or MesheaCrysup.com: LIVING a fibroLIFE©. I really am upbeat, perky, positive…
I am the one laughing, making sure others laugh…
That “morning person” that everyone hopes to avoid (Remember Donna? Remember Kris?), or perhaps, really hopes to find and have in their life (Like the guy at my fav coffee shop who always thanks me for bringing the whole place “UP” when I come in!)!
The glass is always more than half-full. Someone always has it worse-off than I do.
Something good comes from everything.
There is always something to be happy about.
​And, of course, my favorite soapbox: HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE! 

All of that said, if you will recall, I recently wrote about how my no longer singing in public (or at all basically) was not really so much because of my Fibromyalgia (FMS) as I had told myself that it was. (Fibromyalgia Has Gotten a "Bad Rap" on this One")  As I wrote, I was determined to and have been facing the truth about why I developed stage-freight and I started reclaiming that part of myself—my LIFE. I actually found some songs I wrote in 2004-05, and sent them to some friends to hear. Some of these friends have known me forever and were not surprised at the music—only that I was sharing it again, finally! More recent friends were shocked. They had no idea this had ever been a part of my LIFE, or if I had mentioned it, they had not really believed that I was “not half-bad” at one time.  

One of these more recent friends is someone I really only know from facebook. We are both members of a few of the same fb groups. I actually began talking to him because he lives in India and I am constantly seeking to understand other cultures and religious beliefs, in this case, Hinduism. (Fascinating, ANCIENT belief…!)

Well, as per usual with FMS, I was up in the wee-hours this morning. I was trying to distract myself from the pain by doing some “mindless” (Meaning it was easy, not taking a lot of ability to focus.) promoting of Rediscovering Historic Vicksburg, as well as posting some inspiring and motivational Memes, along with “my two cents”, on my personal page and fibroLIFE©, and MesheaCrysup.com: LIVING a fibroLIFE©, when a fb message popped up instructing me to check my email. What I found there left me in tears—happy tears. But, typical girly-girl that I TOTALLY AM, I was also smiling. Not just any-old-smile: A Spontaneous Smile!  
 
My fb friend from India had put together a movie to go with one of my songs! He even mixed in pictures of my family, friends, and me…smiling! Ironically, he only knew that I had written the song. He asked who “the voice” was. I really smiled—and cried some more—when I told him it was all me. The voice, music, lyrics—all me. He replied, “Mmm…that’s why you’re so popular!”

I simply replied, “I don’t know about that, lol!” I was thinking, however, “No, I am not popular—I just LIVE, laughing and smiling as much as possible.”

I never give up and I LIVE that philosophy—my fibroLIFE©--openly for all the world to see. I try to LIVE as an example for all those with chronic pain, anxiety, depression—for all of those who are “Eeyore’s” and hide behind, “That’s just the way I am…”—for anyone and everyone who needs someone always a “bit-too-perky-to-be-real-but is” in their LIFE…” Believe me, that does NOT always make me popular, but I have found that those who are bothered by my approach to LIFE seem to need me—or someone like me—around the most.
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I told my fb friend I could not thank him enough and asked why he did such a thoughtful thing. He replied, “The future depends on what we do in the present? Ahaaaaa!”
He was quoting something I had “mindlessly” posted, and in true-Meshea-fashion, had elaborated on, about two hours earlier. This is it:

Yes, of course I cried—but happy tears—along with a Spontaneous Smile! Thank you Ribi NK!
​~Meshea Crysup

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